DROPPING LIKE FLIES
it turns out the CELTA course really is a reality show. im not sure what station it's on, they are rather secretive about it.
one day we wander into class, and one of the 12 isn't there. he was a newbie like me, he had never taught before. we all ponder what could have happened, my tutor says he hopes he isnt lying under a car somewhere. this was said in his british accent, so it sounded even more dreadful. or could it be...the pressure was too intense? could he not handle it?
the day goes on..he was incessantly emailed..and called, still no reply. we all imagine him under the car, or someone else thinks he could have fallen in a man hole. hmm...
but then after much anticipation, and a day later, he responds. the course was too much for him, he just couldnt handle it. wow, who will be next...
then two days later one of the 11 comes in the morning, and then leaves early because he was ""sick". is he really? he left his locker key on his shelf, insinuating he won't be coming back. wow...will i be next? ahhhhhh
OH DEAR ME
ok, so i went to UNC, so i should be able to handle any intense hardcore schoolage after that pressure-filled land right? right..
that is what i keep trying to remind myself in my daily you-can-do-it-sherri pep talks. as well as this course is only four weeks of my life and there is another world that exists outside of CELTA, and i will somehow find that world again when august ends. at least i hope so.
i have taught three days so far, and each time i leave feeling like i ruined these innocent people. they seem so happy and merry when i teach them, some even say, you good teacher. yet, they dont know the truth. they dont hear what my tutor says after they walk out the door, and how they will forever never know the english language properly because of me. it's not the greatest feeling ever.
well, it's not really that bad of course. my tutor is quite encouraging, regardless of the fact that i did call him fat and old. plus, his criticism is needed to make us better teachers. (yeah yeah..) but we all get praise and then dished out, it isnt just me thankfully. and it could be so much worse.
so after this week of feeling like i didnt do that great, my tutor says, oh, and dont forget i was easy on you all this week. most of the lessons that passed this week would likely not pass if you had done them on week two. but dont worry, you will do great. yeah, thanks..
but it has been really fun to get to know the other people. we are all struggling together and hang out all the time. it is nice to have people to support you and let you know it's going to be ok. i just hope more people dont drop out.
CULTS MAKE YOU PRETTY
one of our assignments was we had to interview one of our students and assess them to learn about their English language background and how it affects them now, and then find out activities to help them.
so i chose to do this sweet Chinese lady. she doesnt speak English very well at all. it took me forever to get anything out of her. i forever was trying to get her to answer the question, why do you want to learn English. finally after twisting and turning it into another form she smiled so big and was so eager to tell me. "world people dont know falun gong, i must tell them. 80 nationalities know. i must tell them."
i had no idea what his falun gong thing was so i asked her to tell me about it, plus it would help me to see what her other speaking problems might be. she goes on to tell me, "falun gong will make you beautiful." i said, "oh so i need that to make me beautiful?" "Yes."
so it turns out, after asking my classmates, that falun gong is a cult in China. the woman in our class escaped from China because she was a member, but wasnt allowed to practice it. so now she is here, trying her best to learn English so she can get some world people to join. the next day she brought fliers for us all, and little paper roses with falun gong bookmarks tailing off the end of it.
but talk about blow to the self esteem, i have to join a cult to become beautiful. thats just great.
THAILAND WANTS TO KNOW IF IM ALIVE
so i had to get my medical permit for my work visa today. i was all concerned cuz i didnt know how to find the hospital, and yeah, lets not discuss again sherri's sense of direction problem. so i was standing on the street near the hospital with my map, looking quite helpless i assume, and a sweet british man comes over and says are you lost? he helped me find my way, and i didnt get lost. i was proud.
i was a little nervous about what the thais would do to me at the hospital. i mean, i dont speak thai, so they could really just take me and do what they want since i wouldnt understand. but once i told the nurse, "medical permit for work visa," i was directed past the hello kitty merchandise booth (in a hospital? only in asia..) to a physical exam room. the nurses were wearing all pastels--blue pants, purple coats, and pink and green shirts--i decided they looked like Easter bunnies. they weighed me, i waited. they took my blood pressure. i waited. they took me into the room with the doctor. she took my blood pressure again, and checked my heart beat. then she signed a paper, i paid 140 baht, which is like 5 dollars and was done. so i guess as long as you know someone has blood going through their veins and a heart beat, they can work in thailand. good to know.
ROOMIES?!
finally one of my roomies has arrived. i came home tonight and the power was already on. its weird, in thailand they are all about saving power, so you have to drop your keycard in this slot on the wall everytime you come in to turn on the power. it is really cool, cuz you are saving so much energy and also you never forget where your key is. those brillant thais.
so the key was already in when i got back. then i peeked in the other room and saw bags on the floor and a body under the covers sleeping.
wow, she just wandered out! she is from portland, oregon. so far she seems outgoing with a strong, open personality. i think she will be fun to live with. the other girls, one from germany and one from canada should be arriving tomorrow. im excited to meet them..i just hope we all get along and it is drama free ya know.
ok, so tomorrow i have to work on my assignment about my chinese cult friend, and finish my lesson plan for monday. so i suppose i should sleep now. sorry this entry isnt terribly exciting. CELTA has drained me of any creative-ness. thanks for reading, it makes me happy to know peeps care.. =)
Saturday, August 11, 2007
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You can do it Sherri!! I know taking all that criticism must be hard (I would hate it anyway) but just think- most teachers go to school for 4 YEARS to learn how to become teachers, and you're getting all that crammed into 4 weeks, so of course you can't know everything from the beginning and it'll be crazy, right? (Not to mention the language barrier.) And then in 3 weeks you'll be done! I mean, you're practically a sophomore already, haha. I'll be praying for you! Hang in there!
GO SHER!
A friend of mine did a course like that~ I think it might even have been CELTA? In any case she sounded totally stressed and worn out after those 4 weeks! But hang in there, it's definitely worth it to get the certificate and I'm sure everyone knows how hard it is, so it'll look awesome on your CV in a few years!
Luv,Michael
Yes, Sherri! You CAN DO IT! I don't want to hear you bash yourself when your tutor says what he's supposed to say: words of criticism. Doesn't he get paid to do that? To me, it would be a refreshing thing to hear one of my own students tell me that I'm a good teacher. If your students say it, then you are a good teacher. You must be reaching them somehow. And your blogs are ALWAYS entertaining to me. I find myself laughing out loud... a lot! :)
You make my day! I love you!
Falun Gong huh! Very interesting. I've heard a lot of sad stories about them and now you've met one member! How cool. Teach her well so you can hear more stuff from her.
Every new teacher will be thinking exactly as you, "Am I good enough to teach others? " Guess what Sherr, I really believe you are. Plus you are freaking sweet so no matter what your students are gonna love you :)
Drink more Thai tea!!
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